onlooker wrote:Funny Ennui, how the pill taking only applies if one does NOT have to deal with reality. In most cases one DOES have to deal with reality.
OK, I'll stop being so confrontational and just kind of say my piece, based on my 10+ years of red-pill-dom.
I can't find the exact figure of speech, but everyone experiences their own personal doom with its own timing and circumstances.
The reason I suffered so much back in the day is that I had too much of an empathic response to macro-level events. I would keep up on Desdemona Despair or watch Homeproject on Youtube and feel really angry and frustrated that this was happening and people either didn't acknowledge it or even if they did, that they didn't care.
Doomerism is ultimately about feeling victim to forces beyond your control, no different from being stuck in a vat in The Matrix, and if you unplug, then you're left navigating around a planet-sized cesspool with flying robotic spaghetti monsters who want to kill you.
My way of working through it was to try to abandon the Moses complex because I realized that my sphere of influence is very narrow. The turning point was the fall of 2008, ClimateGate and Nopenhagen. Any illusions I had of being an activist died around that time. I drew a circle around me and my immediate family and I "made a plan and worked it" as Pops would say. But that plan had to be tailor-made for my unique circumstances, my assets and liabilities.
In the old days, I used to always trot out the fat Truck Nutz guy on this board to keep slagging ignorant red neck AGW-denying coal-rolling truckers. I still despise those kinds of people, but since I never expect them to change, I'm no longer mad at them. It's hard to be angry unless you, deep down, think you can change them. Kind of the nagging spouse mentality, trying to get their husband to change back into Prince Charming. Therefore, I have become mostly apolitical these days, because there's really no way for the policies I'd like to see happen to get realized, and there's few sources of stress that gnaw at me more than feeling politically impotent, which was especially bad during the waning days of the GWB administration.
The last gesture I took towards activism besides the obligatory donations to Sierra Club and the like was trying to start Transition in my town, which face-planted. However, in the talks I've had with my friend who DID manage to start one, the process of doing that really didn't liven her mood a heck of a lot. So she is now a fan of people like Guy McPherson ("Nature Bats Last") and Dark Mountain.
http://guymcpherson.com/2012/09/let-go-or-be-dragged/This quotable is particularly relevant to some here, PStarr especially, who never misses an opportunity to take a swipe at a group of people or a lifestyle he despises:
Our remaining time on this orb is too short to cast aspersions at those who live differently from ourselves...
Ibon said this place can offer a speakeasy for people to rant and rave. But I think one reason so few people are here now is that, for most, it's just not necessary to keep that primal scream thing going day upon day, year upon year. At some point you have to "let it go" (hence the Frozen images).
THAT is the reason I picked ennui as my username (ennui2 is just because I forgot my password with the other account).
The emotion that I associate with acceptance in the grief cycle is
ennui.
It's not depression or rage, it's just kind of a
submission to the way things are, because at the end of the day, none of us here have enough leverage to make any difference outside of our immediate friends-and-family sphere of influence, and even there it's dubious if they don't see eye to eye either (like my parents).
So the bottom line is, outside of reviving an old bad habit, I really have no driving need to come here and engage. There are a LOT of ex-members who don't come here and probably never will again. BigTex popped his head in here briefly and then took off again, for instance. I'm part of that tribe, NOT the doomer faithful. So all I'm doing is giving you people a window into how at least some of us who used to obsess on this 24/7 have moved on.
And when I say move on, I mean it.
Let's say the dollar collapses or NK nukes SK or oil goes down Seneca cliff or any of those fast-crash scenarios. I have already mentally run through those scenarios a zillion times! I'm ready to just flip the switch when life starts to really suck and sheer survival becomes touch-and-go. It doesn't have the same fight-or-flight or bargaining effect on me. And so a lot of the rhetoric that passes through here, like Monte's debt-bomb narrative, it just doesn't frighten me. It's not so much that I think these things won't or can't happen, it's that I've already played it through so many times that I'm not going to panic the way most people will, and I'll just take it as it comes.
Now, I get it. Some of you, maybe most of you, enjoy the game-theory aspect of trying to make sure you've got the best shot at making it through the bottleneck. To me, though, that's bargaining, especially if you fixate on it too often.
I have found things to focus on other than researching doom or prepping that give me a sense of pride and accomplishment. I've had more free time of late because those things I am gearing up to do nights and weekends are still ramping up, but when they do, I really won't have much time for anything else.
"If the oil price crosses above the Etp maximum oil price curve within the next month, I will leave the forum." --SumYunGai (9/21/2016)